So it has been well over a month since I have updated my current goings-on here. In apologize for my lack of updates but I have just been that busy.
Now you are probably wondering what has kept me busy? I will describe to you my business in three parts: school, extra activities, and spiritual activities.....gah i sound like I am writing one of my stupid papers for history 301.
First let us start with school. Since the start of the year, I have had a ridiculous amount of reading. When I say ridiculous I mean close to 100-500 pages a night. I have never had that much reading or cared to to that much reading. I have also had two dance papers, several history papers, a few midterms, and other assorted assignments that have kept me busy. I also suffered an intense cold that should have had me behind in class but I ended up ahead.
For those of you who do not know I am currently in five different bible studies. This does not include church on Sunday either. I have three on Tuesdays and 2 on Thursdays and this is proving to increase my stress levels on some days. I am loving what I am learning about God though and these lessons are making my weeks enjoyable. I find that when I do not do them, I am irritable and cranky.
My extra activities are increasing which is nice. I have been hanging out with friends more and finding more time to escape my dorm or to sleep more. I am going to see Rent on saturday which will be very exciting and I am also scheduled to have sibling time with Michael soon as well.
I think my biggest struggle thus far has been focus. I have been procrastinating on research for my 15 page paper that is due next Thursday. I will be forcing myself to write that this week and make an outline to discuss with my professor next Tuesday. I have been focusing on things that will not matter in the long run such as relationships with boys. I am proud to say that is not my main worry any more and I am back to having superficial crushes and nothing serious like before. There are days when all I want is for someone to ask me out but it is not the dominate force. I am also proud to say that my self esteem is improving. I am feeling better about myself and the work I do which has made a lot of things in life easier.
I am starting to feel somewhat detached from society though. Like I find myself wanting to not be around people as much and sleeping or doing homework more. I am also finding this affects my desire to love people [how can i love others if I do not want to be around people?].
That is pretty much an update on things with me and I hope you are all well.
