So this past weekend I had the pleasure of going to Edge Corps Preview for the Navigators and was faced with a lot to think about. One of the things that has been getting at me a lot lately is seeing everyone connect more deeply and me being left as if I do not matter. I talked to Alissa about this and one of the first things that popped into my head is that what Alissa was saying couldn't be true because I do not feel like God even exists and He doesn't speak to me. I was talking about this a couple of weeks ago with Michael and I never even placed that this simple "feeling" could be a lie.
Satan has decided that his way of getting me to not seek God as my everything is to make everything that happens to me daily mundane and normal. Not only has he succeeded in making feel like God is no longer speaking to me through His word but he has made it seem like nothing that happens in my life is of importance.
An example of this is breathing. Everyday and every night, every second of my life I am breathing. Air goes in my lungs and out, filling my blood with the necessary oxygen to keep my body functioning. I have come to see this act as simple and something I can do a part from God because I do it daily. As I was reading through Genesis and Joseph says in regard to being able to interpret Pharaoh's dream, "It is not me; God will give Pharaoh a favorable answer." (41:16) When I first read that I was like, "Oh, come on Joseph! You know you interpreted those other guys dreams and your own." Then it dawned on me: Joseph recognized that even the stuff he was capable of doing just normally came from God. I began to think about this truth in terms of breathing. I cannot breathe apart from my creator. Even if I could create some sort of contraption to continue breathing I could never create the air.
So after talking with Alissa as well as just reading the verses that the Preview had for us to read through I am challenging myself to view everything, even the simple ability to blink, as a God-given miracle. God is speaking to me even though Satan would love for me to think otherwise. God is loving me and He thinks enough of me to die for me so I must be a pretty cool person. People will forget to invite me to things and they are not being malicious, for the most part and definitely not in my friends group. And even if that were the case God satisfies and is the only thing I need. Community is great but it is horrible without God.
So that is my thought for the day. I am excited for this next semester and working through my new found truth daily as I interact with you all. God bless!
